Sunday, April 26, 2009

Baby boy came and then there was three first miracle baby

Isaac was born April 20, 2004. At 11:01 at 9 pounds 14 ounces.

My man was supposed to have been underweight...mental disabilities, physical disabiliies,that was if he would even survive. Well I am happy to say that my little man survived and came into this world screaming his little head off. He is now 5 years old (and still screaming lol).

Isaac , came after i had 3 miscarriages due to antiphosphilipid antibody syndrom. A blood clotting disorder that had claimed my 3 babies already. I would have to take 3 shots in my stomach of lovenox..and then move to heprin. I never carried a child passed 10 weeks..even with the shots. I had been with Jacob now for 3 years. There was a lot of fear at first. Isaac went 17 weeks without me taking the shots of blood thinners. He was a true blessing from God. I was working at the time for the Association for Retarted Citizens of Butler county.

The job was wonderful. I took care of 6 mentally challenged individuals ..whom I still love deeply. It got hard toward the end of the pregnancy. I was tired all the time. it was tough. I was hitting my knees thanking God when the doctor put me on short term disibility.

I will not go into the labor..lets just say the epidural wouldnt work. I had a natural delivery.

Isaac was perfect. and I will be posting infant pictures when I get them loaded up.

Isaac takes after his momma (yes that is what he still calls me). He has spirit, TONS of energy, he jumps, climbs. He has already had stitches twice now. He has had xrays twice now. Countless visits to the er for a plethora of reasons. He has had 2 ticks , (which he was so happy that he got to keep the first one ) much to momma's delight. Just so all of you konw this little man never experienced a minute of abuse...the reason for all of this...he is all boy...jumping off beds..the topof his playhouse..running and his feet getting too fast for his body. This boy scares me sometimes. I begged for permission from his doctor to be allowed to duct tape him to the couch so that he can watch 24/7 educational doc said no..He is active and daring. He is also brilliant, thoughtful, funny this boy can laugh.

Before I go on any longer , let me tell you the meaning of Isaac's name and how we came up with it. Isaac's name truly means laughter , to laugh..and man he can laugh...

Now there is a story in the bible about Abraham and Sarah that prayed to God to give them a child, and God blessed them with baby Isaac. Jacob and I, although we were not ready, God was ready to give us our Isaac. That is how Isaac got his name. God does things on his own time.

God blessed us with Isaac Robert Merle . Our first miracle child.

Thank you God for your many blessings above all thank you for my husband, Isaac and Lucas.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

First there was this boy and girl

That seems like an appropiate title. We really should start at the beginning.

Jacob (my husband) and I orginally met in highschool.

We were in drivers ed together, and were properly introduced by his cousin and a friend .

We were true highschool sweethearts, Jacob was wonderful.

He was so romantic, and sweet, just amazing.

Well, Jacob was really into the church scene. I was always raised in church.

So really nothing new to me and i thourouly enjoyed going.

Jacob went to church camp in june 3 months after we started dating.

When he came back he thought it best to break my heart for another girl(all water under the bridge). We were young.

Later, she would come to my birthday party and I think she is a great person.

By the way we were only 16 lol..

But, one thing I knew that he didn't know is that we

were going to be married one day. Men seem the last to know these little details.

I fell away from church, thought I was a big girl and went on my own.

Probably not the best decisison that I have made.

I went from one party to another, not caring about my self.

I was preg a year after we broke up, and God saw where I was and

who I was with . God took my angel , who was too perfect for this world

took him to be with him. I went on after graduation , and got pregnant twice more

After the second miscarriage they diagnosed me with

antiphosphilipid antibody syndrome. It is a blood clotting disorder, what would happen

is that the blood would clot and the baby wouldn't get nutrients from the umbilical cord.

I was angry at God and at the time couldn't understand what I was doing

wrong(meanwhile God could have wrote a book on my transgressions lol.

Jacob during this time apart. Was also losing God little by little.

He preached for his church, but soon he would feel betrayed.

He made some mistakes (nothing huge) but felt like the church and the church family he so cared for turned there back on him.

His relationship ended with the sweet girl (who was nothing like me at the time.

Jacob and I talked throughout his junior and my senior year. (yes folks he is 4 whole months younger than I.

I was in a 2 and a half year relationship, with this boy after highschool.

I finally found out he cheated on mme and finally I moved on.

I worked at sunoco at the time....

Jacob would come in time after time..he would stop in when I worked midnight shift.

He would tell me later , that he hated seeing me working night shift alone.

Finally after about 2 months July of 2001, 3 years and 1 month after breaking my heart....

he asked me out again..well , that is how we started again...we have been together almost 8 years now...married for 5...

We have had our ups and downs...he has taught me that love is not perfect but it is well worth the ride...

We have found God , (low and behold he has been there the entire time, imagine that)

God has blessed us, he has put us through trials..and because of that we are stronger than ever.

We have 2 amazing children (who will each have their own story) Isaac has just turned 5 and Lucas who will be 3 in August. This is our family...we will raise them with Gods help..

they will kknow that when things get bad...and you feel you have noone...God will be lifting you into his arms and carry you through...

Jacob , being the wonderful man he is has "adopted" my angel babies.

He has held me when I still mourn my may sound crazy and noone is completly sane.

But we are husband and wife...and he has shown me so much .. and by him doing that is one of the best gifts he could have gave me. crazy or not it meant alot to me.