Thursday, April 23, 2009

First there was this boy and girl

That seems like an appropiate title. We really should start at the beginning.

Jacob (my husband) and I orginally met in highschool.

We were in drivers ed together, and were properly introduced by his cousin and a friend .

We were true highschool sweethearts, Jacob was wonderful.

He was so romantic, and sweet, just amazing.

Well, Jacob was really into the church scene. I was always raised in church.

So really nothing new to me and i thourouly enjoyed going.

Jacob went to church camp in june 3 months after we started dating.

When he came back he thought it best to break my heart for another girl(all water under the bridge). We were young.

Later, she would come to my birthday party and I think she is a great person.

By the way we were only 16 lol..

But, one thing I knew that he didn't know is that we

were going to be married one day. Men seem the last to know these little details.

I fell away from church, thought I was a big girl and went on my own.

Probably not the best decisison that I have made.

I went from one party to another, not caring about my self.

I was preg a year after we broke up, and God saw where I was and

who I was with . God took my angel , who was too perfect for this world

took him to be with him. I went on after graduation , and got pregnant twice more

After the second miscarriage they diagnosed me with

antiphosphilipid antibody syndrome. It is a blood clotting disorder, what would happen

is that the blood would clot and the baby wouldn't get nutrients from the umbilical cord.

I was angry at God and at the time couldn't understand what I was doing

wrong(meanwhile God could have wrote a book on my transgressions lol.

Jacob during this time apart. Was also losing God little by little.

He preached for his church, but soon he would feel betrayed.

He made some mistakes (nothing huge) but felt like the church and the church family he so cared for turned there back on him.

His relationship ended with the sweet girl (who was nothing like me at the time.

Jacob and I talked throughout his junior and my senior year. (yes folks he is 4 whole months younger than I.

I was in a 2 and a half year relationship, with this boy after highschool.

I finally found out he cheated on mme and finally I moved on.

I worked at sunoco at the time....

Jacob would come in time after time..he would stop in when I worked midnight shift.

He would tell me later , that he hated seeing me working night shift alone.

Finally after about 2 months July of 2001, 3 years and 1 month after breaking my heart....

he asked me out again..well , that is how we started again...we have been together almost 8 years now...married for 5...

We have had our ups and downs...he has taught me that love is not perfect but it is well worth the ride...

We have found God , (low and behold he has been there the entire time, imagine that)

God has blessed us, he has put us through trials..and because of that we are stronger than ever.

We have 2 amazing children (who will each have their own story) Isaac has just turned 5 and Lucas who will be 3 in August. This is our family...we will raise them with Gods help..

they will kknow that when things get bad...and you feel you have noone...God will be lifting you into his arms and carry you through...

Jacob , being the wonderful man he is has "adopted" my angel babies.

He has held me when I still mourn my may sound crazy and noone is completly sane.

But we are husband and wife...and he has shown me so much .. and by him doing that is one of the best gifts he could have gave me. crazy or not it meant alot to me.


  1. I noticed you are "following" my blog so I checked out your profile and noticed you have Angel Babies. I, too, have many Angel Babies, the most recent having passed on November 6, 2008 at 25 weeks gestation. My other Blog "Mourning into Dancing" speaks more of her and the others.

    I'm sorry you've had to go through such trials. Hold on to the faith that God will see you through, and someday you will be able to meet your precious Darlings.

  2. Nice to meet you!!! Thanks for visiting my blog!!! How did you find me?
    I look forward to getting to know you and your family. It's nice to find another sister in Christ. Thanks for sharing your story and I wish you all the best that life has to offer. Your little angel babies are now up there playing with my little darling:)
    Big hugs, Sandy

  3. Thank you for visiting my blog. Thank you for sharing your testimony.

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